January 30, 2006


  • i don't care what i may have implied before - this unconditonal, Rilkean love is frakkin' hard!
    when i want to say things like "no, listen to me" or "no, don't shut me out", i can't... i have to say what my wants me to say, and so i say "whatever you need"... and i mean it
    but being loving is also scary, especially trying not to control... i don't like that part